I forget that I have a livejournal sometimes. I feel like a phony coming to post here after I've neglected it for so long.
I feel that way about DeviantArt too. Or, actually, art in general. I've been having a lot of problems getting started with my art lately. I make a lot of excuses, but I have a serious lack of confidence that's preventing me from doing any serious drawing, painting, sketching, or otherwise. I had gotten into the flow a while ago and was sketching every day, at least. Nothing good, but it was something.
All it takes is one day to get you out of the habit. I'm not even sure why I stopped. Maybe I had a headache. Maybe I saw something shiny. It's hard to say.
I suppose these overwhelming confidence problems have been growing for a while now. I seem to shut myself down with them sometimes, but I always push past it when I need to. The problem is, there's nothing I need to make art for. It's just for me. And I'm bad at doing stuff just for me. But I realize that I have to - I suppose that's the first step.
I actually came here to share a funny spam email that I got this morning, but it seems dumb now. Damn LJ got me talking and sharing my feelings.
I hope I'll stop by more often.